Showing posts with label walking in these shoes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label walking in these shoes. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Huffington Post :: Can A Haircut Change Your Life..?

Tried to leave this over at HuffPo, but it was umpteen words too long.. Imagine THAT, if you will.. :giggle:

That's cool, though.. This way I can dusty it up with a couple of related websites..

Yeah, in response to Liz Jones' Can A Haircut Change Your Life? (June 24, 2008 10:22 AM), these Fingertips (apparently overly) meandered.......

Glad I came in to visit out of curiosity.. Have contemplated Locks Of Love often, maybe even as to having my hair donated after my Time has come.. Unfortunately, this kid's most definitely a (bleach) bottle baby..

Used to be one of those that washed obsessively every day.. All I can say is :: DON'T TO DO THAT..!

My own has grown by leaps and bounds since the worst of my depression hit where the energy to wash it every day left.. Am lucky if it's washed once a week these days (whether it needs it or not).. In return, though, my hair now graciously tickles places it never dreamed of reaching in the past.. And that length comes in spite of the very best efforts of a determined one gallon Shop Vac one day last year..

Don't ask, I'd have to relive the experience that came this close to being one of the weirdest guffaw-inducing 9-1-1 calls on the Pickens County Sheriff's Department's daily blotter.. You know you've got a certain type of reputation when walking around the front yard looking for handtools with a Shop Vac attached to your head does not alert anyone that maybe, just maybe, something is slightly askew in your Life..

Life's Lesson Learned: Yes, Virginia, you can fully dismantle a vacuum cleaner attached to your head with one hand and in one afternoon if absolutely necessary.....

But I digress..

With respect to my hair's health, after years of running the gamut of expensive over-the-counter shampoos, conditioners, and treatments within that cycle of obsessiveness, today's staid, highly stress reducing regimen consists of:

  • Lander's 32 oz. Lavender 3-in-1 combo (shampoo, conditioner, body wash-aren't they all..?) :: ~$2.50
  • Suave conditioner 22 oz. :: ~$1.49
  • Family Dollar Store's Hair Detangler 10 oz. spritzer :: $1.00

Adore my hair stylist, Cindy over House Of Style in Ball Ground.. Just can't afford to see her as often as one would like..

Cindy does exactly as I ask, exactly, regardless of how she knows it will not be perfect to the professional standards she knows when I walk out her business' front door.. Instead, she's one of the few hairdressers I've known in this Life who RESPECTS that hair can be a person's Achilles' Heel..

Would LOVE to hear personally, firsthand, of more hair stylist-related non-profits.. Yup, non-profits that do nothing but serve by lopping off people's hair.. Professional attention to one's hair leads to a chain reaction of a better perceived personal image, more confidence, more likely to reach outside one's current state of affairs..

Here in Georgia, Hosea's Feed The Hungry and Homeless gets that part of the overall picture.. They offer haircuts as part of their service weekends to their local community..

Things are getting tougher and tougher, near literally by the hour.. Each day that passes, for some untold number of us out here in the real World, personal image becomes one of the very, very few things left to us by our Life's circumstances.. It does not make a bad place to start when actively offering others a hand up in our local communities..

Cyber hugs from Talking Rock..

Friday, June 13, 2008

Xinhuanet.com :: Tom Cruise Admires Jack Kevorkian's Work..?

Tokitae and Cindy Sue As A Puzzle

You know, you know, you know.. Back when Tom Cruise's couch jumping ordeal on Oprah's occurred, not to mention the Scientology angle, I didn't have much Internet online access, let alone a functional 'puter so I pretty much just had to leave it go..

The whole thing was frightening to ever so silently bear witness to, though, in that one imagines loyal fans following however he may lead just because of the magnetic draw he has on people.. Human Nature will be what it will be, and the desire of so many to be around celebrities regardless will, too..

But.. this..... shtuff that crossed these Fingertips today.. Oy, freaking vey..

To set it up, part of what comes into my inbox is regular searches on that dreadful phrase, "assisted suicide" along with "right to die".. Today's I happened to open in a timely manner.. Whoohoo.. This is what I found:

[Celebrity photog] diplomatically saved the day by explaining that Cruise really meant the doctor's campaign for the right to die and assisted suicide.

The very first thing that came to Mind as I read that teaser..? Oh, please, say this is not going to show Tom Cruise, with his record on mental health and Scientology already, somehow being referenced as interacting with or about Dr. Jack Kevorkian..?! Leaky pipes, be dogged.. This lead I had to follow..

The rest of the blurb went something like.......

[Veteran celebrity photographer Patrick McMullan] tells the story of introducing assisted suicide advocate Jack "Doctor Death" Kervorkian to Tom Cruise at a party. According to McMullan, Cruise had no idea who the euthanasia advocate was, but didn't hold back with the enthusiasm.

I really love your work, he quotes Cruise as saying. And Dr Kervorkian looks at me like 'what'?

The photographer diplomatically saved the day by explaining that Cruise really meant the doctor's campaign for the right to die and assisted suicide.

Just break my Heart, why don't you.....

For so, so many years, Tom Cruise, because of the Old Time Rock And Roll scene in Risky Business, held a fond, fond memory spot in my Heart.. Not because of the adorableness of the scene and, well, YOU know, but because multiple times a day for years, I'd hear that song playing at the Whale Bowl as Tokitae and Makani "duked" it out as to who was the audience favorite..

As a (still) treasured Mockingbird once told me as we gazed out over the Flipper Lagoon, it was such a very magical place and time, those days out there.. Old Time Rock And Roll, by default, brought Tom right along with..

But now.......

Sheesh, golly, gee, Tommy.. Break my poor little Heart.....

Cyber hugs from Talking Rock..

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

AJC :: Georgia Governor's mental health commission copied other state's materials..

Butterfly

Alan Judd and Andy Miller's recanting of Georgia's ever evolving mental health care system story through their A Hidden Shame series just keeps getting better and better.......

Not.

Thanks to the editors who (once again) saw the Value to including the following in the weekday AJC emailing, the latest I've seen is today's entry about how the Georgia Governor's commission has now no less than plagiarized a few years old likeminded report from Michigan rather than dedicate more towards creating our own:

A new vision outlined for mental health care in Georgia last week isn't so new after all.

Large sections of a report by Gov. Sonny Perdue's mental health commission were lifted, often verbatim, from a Michigan study published in 2004 and from two other sources, a review by The Atlanta Journal-Constitution found. The commission's report, released last week by the governor's office, credits none of the cloned material.

The report presents as its own work entire sentences, paragraphs and longer passages from other sources, with no more than superficial editing. It duplicates, with only two minor changes in wording, the values listed in the Michigan study. Seven of Georgia's eight key findings mirror Michigan's. Even Georgia's vision statement is appropriated from the Michigan report.

Sigh.......

Because of how ceaselessly exhausted I remain and how hard I know it is to keep going most days, a part of me is empathetic to what occurs in situations like this.. What I'm meaning is empathetic towards that days are only 24-hours long and Lives are crammed full to the hilt already trying just to possibly stay somewhere above the water line in this, our one and only shot at that thing called Life..

And like that which goes back to 2002 when the in-my-physical-presence handpicked advocate chosen for me by heads of the Highland River's Community Service Board THEMSELVES the day they publicly announced their slate was clean dropped off the face of the Earth on me regularly in an extremely desperate, by a spider's silk threadbare time of need for any kind of external advocacy assistance.. Every day that blip in time comes to Mind, I try to forgive by picturing she may walk in Shoes not so unlike my own..

Yup.. Some large part of me does "get" it in some part, much as it can be and remains Life-endangering to those who faithfully do as Society expects, too often dictates, and trustingly walk in those same very doors..

What me doesn't get is that those who could become even more empowered by involvement on any level sit day after day after day waiting to hear what tidbits they can from sources such as Alan and Andy.. Most aren't at that point where these fingertips are.. Those in particular could use the self-determination guaranteed by a phone call inviting their opinion on what occurred in each, their own separate case of mismanaged mental health care across the great state of Georgia..

Ego comes to Mind.. When Lives are endangered, there is no place on this Planet for Ego..

There's a reason I openly worship my relationship with the advocates and self-advocates that revolve around the awe-inspiring energies generating from disABILITY LINK, the center for independent living (CIL) down there on Commerce Drive in Decatur.. If they've got Ego, by gosh and golly, they've harnessed it to the hilt to drive positive actions of support and empowerment in all directions towards others, positive forward moving actions of advocacy that are literally saving Lives..

They nearly alone and without twice of thought saved mine..

My Heroes.

Cyber hugs from Talking Rock..

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Illinois H.R. 4537 :: "Voices" Sprouting Up All *OVER* The Place..

Too cool to find this just now even as, alack and a[bit of bad]luck, I could not attend the latest Georgia Voices That Count initial self-advocacy training weekend down in Atlanta.. Activities during this first weekend normally include sensitive, fragile self-disclosure along with visits to the Martin Luther King, Jr., Center, his birth home, and the National Park Services' Ebenezer Baptist Church..

This remains my favorite of the Georgia Voices That Count curriculum (and why I go back whenever I can to help speed up the process for others) because I will never forget how lonely I was until that weekend.......

How still lonely feeling and by that time bordering on, hm, how about "overwhelmed" that Saturday morning as Georgia Voices #3 quietly ate breakfast at the hotel then gathered to head out on a short road trip down to the King Center.......

How still very lonely as, one by one, classmates whose Life stories I yet not knew were secured into the wheelchair lift that took them upstairs while excruciatingly silent others waited for their turn.......

How yet lonelier still as I found my solo seat in the very, very, very back of the church as others scattered themselves out each singly elsewhere around, nervously smiling at each other should our eyes all meet..

And then.......

This absolute most amazing flood of warmth, connectivity, camaraderie came over me as I looked out across all those, to that moment, strangers radiating all around before me..

From one heartbeat to the next, I realized I was finally where I was supposed to be.. That all the pain and Lifetime movie-esque Life adventures had been leading up to that very moment in Time..

And now, while I do look back and draw desperately on those so very painful experiences to drive the disability self-advocacy that empowers these fingertips, I can accept that Pain for the learning experiences it all has been..

Because I'm no longer alone in that Pain.. I will, instead, forever forward now have the strength, support, and fellowship that comes from Georgia Voices supplying the Wind beneath these Life-worn Wings..

Wow.. Hm. Where [the.......] did that all come from..? :grin, blush:

Back on track she goes: The real reason I started to type was because of savoring the moment of finding the following story out of Illinois just now while my Mind is constantly running backwards guessing what the newest Georgia Voicers are likely doing each very second today, just before they themselves find that same beyond descript flood of emotion overtake them, too:

Several self advocates from Paris joined others from around Illinois to testify before the House Elementary and Secondary Education Committee on House Bill 4537 (HB4537), a bill introduced by Rep. Bob Flider (Decatur) which would require Illinois public schools to provide curriculum on Disability History.

The testimony included stories of bullying and discrimination toward persons with disabilities by school classmates.

The group involved is called.......

Illinois Voices.. Self-advocacy training for persons with developmental disabilities..

Yay.. Way to go, Fellow Voicers..!

And to my own newest up and coming group of Georgia Voices That Count colleagues, WHO LOVES YOU, BABY..?! All your fellow classmates before you, THAT'S WHO..!

Cyber hugs from Talking Rock..

United In Advocacy..!

Monday, March 17, 2008

NCD :: Let PWPDs Become Part of the American Dream..

Oh, goodness, Mark.. Sending a great big cyber hug your way..

Your latest Council update COULD NOT be any more appropriate.. Goes to the aforementioned last Friday still..

And my stepping in where not asked and where others might not dare because others might not dare.......

Because others didn't dare.......

Because others might not ever dare..

Stepping in when one face truly listened, truly heard me, and spoke, "Hmm.." to my imposing myself on the situation..

And another's face (not words) tolerated but very definitely bore an unspoken, "Just what business of yours do you really think this is anyway..?"

Stepping in because persons with mental illness (PWMIs), persons with psychiatric disabilities (PWPDs) have long lived their Lives being made to feel it's over before it even gets started..

Because PWPDs are more often than not led to believe they mess up, and that's it, it's over, it's gone, it's done, and that there are no legal alternatives to transition away from the stereotypes, the stigma of many years gone by..

Even when we whoopsie in plain sight.......

Yup, Life supplied these very worn Shoes, but the Wind beneath this Butterfly's tattered Wings comes from Angels like you all there at the National Council on Disability forever moving forward so that we may All live together safely, inclusively as One in our respective communities through open doored, open armed support within the same..

Huge tears of Joy welling from the Hills of North Georgia..


From the National Council on Disability (NCD) emailing list..
Date: Mon, Mar 17, 2008 at 10:20 AM
Subject: National Council on Disability Says Let People with Psychiatric Disabilities Become Part of the American Dream..

NEWS RELEASE
NCD #08–556
March 17, 2008
Contact: Mark S. Quigley
202-272-2004

National Council on Disability Says Let People with Psychiatric Disabilities Become Part of the American Dream..

WASHINGTON—The National Council on Disability (NCD) today released a paper entitled Inclusive Livable Communities for People with Psychiatric Disabilities, calling on Congress and the Administration to fully include and integrate people with psychiatric disabilities into America’s livable communities. Let people with psychiatric disabilities become part of the American dream.

According to NCD Chairperson John R. Vaughn, "For the promise of full integration into the community to become a reality, people with disabilities need safe and affordable housing; access to transportation; access to the political process; and the right to enjoy whatever services, programs, and activities are offered to all members of the community by both public and private entities. Although previous NCD reports addressed people across the full array of disabilities, a main focus of accessibility was on environmental elements that primarily apply more to the 'obvious' disabilities than to 'hidden' disabilities like many psychiatric disabilities and mental illnesses. Information about the six identified elements of livable communities, other elements, barriers, and promising practices for people with psychiatric disabilities needs to be broadened to achieve all-inclusive communities."

This paper focuses specifically on expanding the livable communities framework and elements to people with psychiatric disabilities and supports full inclusion that leaves out no one. Grounded in the six identified elements, a livable community

  1. Provides affordable, appropriate, accessible housing
  2. Ensures accessible, affordable, reliable, safe transportation
  3. Adjusts the physical environment for inclusiveness and accessibility
  4. Provides work, volunteer, and education opportunities
  5. Ensures access to key health and support services
  6. Encourages participation in civic, cultural, social, and recreational activities

When the focus shifts specifically to people with psychiatric disabilities, it becomes plain that without expansion this framework is insufficient to ensure the full integration of all people who have disabilities. The main barrier that people with psychiatric disabilities face is that a community that eliminates all the physical environment barriers still may not be fully accessible to people with psychiatric disabilities because of ingrained attitudes toward mental illness. Before people with psychiatric disabilities can even begin to take full advantage of the elements of the livable communities framework, they must be able to surmount an attitudinal barrier.

The attitudinal barrier is exemplified by outdated policies, programs, and beliefs about people with psychiatric disabilities as needing to receive all services within segregated settings in which mental health providers deliver housing, work, education, health care, and support services entirely within the mental health system. Abolishing this attitudinal barrier is necessary to ensure that people with psychiatric disabilities have access to the wider community and all that it may offer.

In this paper, by examining a variety of programs that show promise or have proved successful in achieving community integration for people with psychiatric disabilities, recognizes the need for major changes in public policies to support further efforts for full integration and participation. Five core recommendations summarizing some needed federal-level changes follow.

Core Recommendation One: Congress should ensure that Department of Health and Human Services (HHS) appropriations continue to support anti-stigma campaigns and expand efforts to provide a funding base for self-help programs operated and run by mental health consumers and survivors, analogous to the funding provided under the Rehabilitation Act for operation of independent living centers. Consideration should be given to implementation through HHS/Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) reauthorization or other federal mechanisms. Consumers/survivors should be included in the evaluation of ongoing anti-stigma campaigns and the design, development, and expansion of self-help program funding.

Core Recommendation Two: Implement changes in federal and state funding and policy to encourage housing models that are integrated, in accordance with individual choice, and delinked from mandatory health services, while providing ongoing flexible supports. Several federal agencies should examine policies and practices through a partnership effort. The work can begin with congressional action to ensure removal of contradictory or incompatible federal paperwork burdens and policy barriers. Congress should provide the funding needed for initial joint planning and reporting by the Department of Housing and Urban Development (HUD), HHS, and the Social Security Administration (SSA).

Core Recommendation Three: Congress and HUD, HHS, and SSA should work to change federal and state funding and policy to eliminate the “benefits trap,” which discourages people with psychiatric and other disabilities from working, and to ensure that work opportunities are available for the full range of jobs, with ongoing flexible supports.

Core Recommendation Four: HHS should be authorized to change Medicaid policy and regulations as implemented by the Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services (CMS). The agency should examine and consider the merits of existing models; for example, the Michigan state model reframes the definition of “medical necessity” to include "community integration," and shifts funding to services based on "person-centered planning." Such changes would allow a broader variety of recovery-oriented services to be eligible for Medicaid funding than is available currently.

Core Recommendation Five: Congress should ask the Government Accountability Office to assess and identify indicators of practices that seem to be working in HHS efforts to address cultural and linguistic issues through initiatives like the National Center on Cultural Competence (NCCC). In addition, Congress should allocate funds to expand the NCCC cultural and linguistic competence training model to ensure that as national demographics change, services to people from diverse racial and ethnic groups are provided in ways that meet their self-defined needs.

"By ensuring the expansion of the livable communities framework and recommendations to fully include and integrate people with psychiatric disabilities, American society can provide all citizens the opportunity to become part of the American dream," Vaughn concluded.

NCD is an independent federal agency and is composed of 15 members appointed by the President, by and with the advice and consent of the Senate. NCD provides advice to the President, Congress, and executive branch agencies to promote policies, programs, practices, and procedures that-

  • (A) guarantee equal opportunity for all individuals with disabilities, regardless of the nature or severity of the disability; and
  • (B) empower individuals with disabilities to achieve economic self-sufficiency, independent living, and inclusion and integration into all aspects of society.

For more information, please contact Mark S. Quigley, NCD’s Director of External Affairs, at 202-272-2004.

Monday, March 3, 2008

CBS News Investigation :: "Disabled and Waiting"..

Call it Fate, if you will, in flipping channels one evening a couple of months ago, caught the news feature teaser just getting ready to lead into CBS News Investigation's Disabled and Waiting: Backlog In Disability Benefits System Leaves Thousands Of Vulnerable Americans Stranded story (January 14, 2008)..

And for some reason, I watched..

And (predictably) ended up absolutely in tears before it was over..

Was this part in particular that did it:

A two-month CBS News investigation has found that over the last two years, at least 16,000 people fighting for disability benefits died while awaiting a decision.

Having spent as long as I have with my cyber heels dug deep [1] into some of the best disability (self-)advocacy Internet sites around since my own psychiatric survivor label-garnering experience, I've seen my share of horrible, horrible stories of people with disabilities going through the social security disability payments ordeal and losing everything, everything in Life they have, are, and were while enduring the seemingly ceaseless process..

Up to and including the "s" word.......

Suicide..

The tears shed over Disabled and Waiting come also in part from consciously recognizing every moment I'm still here that there but for the generosity of an ex-boyfriend for the extremist of Life-sustaining staples go I..

Life being what it is, nay, more what the thunderstorms predict it could be in the near offing, I, too, once again entered the Social Security junket just a couple of weeks ago.. While the despair that arises with each attempt is no less than before due to being forced to openly relive everything disastrous that has been the Life these fingertips have seen, this Time very admittedly seems almost pleasant as the wonderful SS lady on the other end of the phone has herself seen Life from this side..

And she knows what it's like walking in these Shoes..

And, more importantly than anything else sometimes, she really does give.......

A rat's patootie about the Human Life within these same worn Shoes..

To the government entities who each have their Hands in the Beastie that is the social security disability payment process, you obviously can access the file that is mine.. That lady there helping me..? She should be one of the Standards others strive to achieve..

And she already works right there within your, our system..

Please......

As much as anything else, if you don't proactively do something to help, you play a part in that "s" word as it applies to some part of those 16,000 people CBS reports..

If you don't proactively do something to help create change, you play a part in all of those some 16,000 precious Lives lost as CBS reports..

If you don't proactively do something to help create change, you play a part in some untold number of persons with disabilities right this moment..

Living on the street.......

Literally starving.......

Them, too, right this very, very second contemplating the unthinkable a forever untold number of others have already done before them for the exact same reasons..

This very, very second as you read this.......

Cyber hugs with a special one going out to the very kind and understanding Mrs. * currently helping me work through the SS process..

.......This time..

[1] A little sidebar on the referenced CNN.com blurb.. Thanks to the very first opportunity I had to speak totally by accident with Yvette with PAIMI over at GAO back in 2003, I had in fact introduced myself to CNN.com as "a person with mental illness".. Editorial license being what it is and thus wholly out of our control the precise moment the "Send" button is clicked, WHOOPSIE, I became a person who "[has] a mental illness"..

Sunday, December 9, 2007

How to Tell if Someone is In Touch with Walking In Your Shoes..

For one thing, politician or not, you won't find them documented anywhere as wearing an $8,500 Oscar de la Renta dress to hobnob with stars at some posh-posh fancy affair while you're living on, oh, say, 10cent/package ramen noodles boiled along with 25cent helpings of hotdogs (two dogs) on your single burner..

Here's a hint :: It's not not First Lady Mrs. Laura Bush......

Repeat after these fingertips:

Election 2008, Election 2008..!
Feel The Power of The disAbility VOTE..!

:wink:

Cyber hugs with an extra hug out to Allen L Roland whose latest post inspired, spirred the above..

Mother Jones :: Schlock and Awwww: Commercializing Altruism..

Excellent observation from Jon Mooallem over at Mother Jones entitled......

Schlock and Awwww: Commercializing Altruism..

Been intending for ages to post that, especially with all the hype that will be given to Super Bowl commercials very soon, how grand it would be if advertiser marketing campaigns went 180 on the gabillions of dollars spent on their commercials by going extremely simplistic then openly expressing that dollars once frivously spent on garish commercials were now going to philanthropic efforts in local communities..

Freedom of Speech existing as it so grandly does, though, there would be a guaranteed adverse effect on some level.. Takes little imagination to envision the organized consumer-driven campaigns that would erupt demanding advertisers stop patronizing some given [non-profit] or consumer dollars would be diverted to competitors immediately.. :sigh:

Back to reflecting on Jon's cool observation of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition.. My own take comes from walking in these Shoes: I know what the temperature was inside my house last winter and got a pretty dadgum good clue what it will be again this year..

And then I cry for all those whose Shoes are even more worn than Mine for they will never see the likes of the Ty Penningtons of the World and instead will rely on the Human Kindness within their local communities to offer them a hand back up as productive members of Society..

It can happen.. It does every day.. It begins with extremely unselfish, proactive disclosures of Life-affecting, Life-altering, Life-saving information.. No better Time than the Present.. :wink:

Soggy cyber hugs from my favorite local L with an extra special one going out to Jon..

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Hit and Run Post :: GOPUSA :: Fred Thompson said *WHAT*..?

"Hit and Run Post" translates into my apologies up front for any accidental whoopsies because of its rushed creation......

In at the library again today because I'm typing up what will be ornaments for my disability self-advocacy entry in this year's "Festival of Trees" (if I finish in time :Oy, goodness, grin: )..

In spite of the ever desperately ticking time clock, OCD dictated that I quickly check in with my email inbox as well.. In doing so, found that the latest GOPUSA Eagle newsletter had arrived.. This week's feature story shared that Fred Thompson believes our nation's national security to be the top issue for Election 2008..

Most respectfully (and all things genuinely considered), I begs to differ..........

Having just paid $3.03 a gallon for gas at the Ellijay Wally World last night (two and a half gallons to make the trip safely back into Pickens County), being able to just afford to put something more than those dadgum ramen noodles on my table at night rules in my house..

Milk, eggs, surely any number of other staples I haven't even looked at because, again, I just plum can't afford them, are over the top, too.. How in the H-e-double-toothpicks do these companies beginning to seriously gouge consumers expect us to continue if we can't afford to fuel our bodies, let alone the vehicles that get us to work, to healthcare providers, to schools, to volunteer activities that perpetuate the Spirit of Giving to others..?

And where, oh, where is my Hero of the Future, the politician who has been here, done that in similar Shoes to know that, without even the very basic sustenances in Life, you might as well be trying to sell me the Hope diamond when you endeavor to get this Mind focused on national security just this very moment..?

Nope. Once again most respectfully, national security will not be Issue One these fingertips will seek out in determining where they will ultimately lay themselves come Election Day, 2008.........

Cyber hugs..

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Cyber hugs to all my Friends out there..

And huge apologies that I have not been able to return messages left for me at certain social networking websites all over the Internet.. Just been without a working computer at the house.. You have no idea how many of you all pass through my thoughts each and every day.. :grin:

The upside to being without a 'puter is that it leaves, yuck, tons of time for housecleaning, ugh, not to mention conspiring to repair a near constantly ailing vehicle of late.. More on the latter later as I have a bunch of public "thank yous" to leave for all those who have been so helpful and, more importantly from these Shoes, kind and respectful throughout all my questions and one-on-ones as I bounce through the list of tow companies, auto repair businesses, and auto parts stores here in Pickens County..

Cyber hugs..

PS If anyone knows where I can get my hands on an inexpensive computer from Year 2000 or better, you'd be my Hero for the Day.. I've run the gamut of community thrift stores with no luck in recent weeks.. 23,000 plus emails in my inbox when I got to the local library earlier.. At least 85% of those emails contain awesome disability advocacy information that never should have stopped at these fingertips........

Cyber hugs X2.. :grin:

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Walking in These Shoes :: Life Sucks..

Can't believe I just said and meant "Lighten up" to another.. To a major website and identifiably as myself along with exactly why because they unknowingly chose just the wrong moment to invade my inbox with a "Why haven't you come to visit us in our vision of 'visit us in this many days or you don't give a D*mn about the World'" pressure email..

That "Lighten up" didn't come without forethought, though.. Been a tough few days in the latest personal evolution since my experience within the doors of community mental health care..

I don't know.. "Lighten up" started with the trip to the grocery store a few days ago, I guess..

Sucks that I've found myself jumping up and down to everyone about being able to buy d*mn hamburger for the first time in several years.. $1.00 a pound a few days ago.. Plain white wrapper.. Greasy as H-e-double-toothpicks.. Yummy as H-e-double-toothpicks, btw..

But I digress already from that..

Life Sucks..

Sucks up the wazoo that that $1.00/pound hamburger throws my already long ago flat broke busted 50, 75-cent a day food budget allowance out the fricking window for months to come from now..

Sucks up the bigger wazoo that $1.00 a pound hamburger has to be the highlight of my day.. Oy, vey..

Sucks the even bigger wazoo that lately it's hard to find like-minded people who Love All Others, Support All Others, would Fight and Lay Down Their Own Lives for Others.. Likemindeds who do not in any way, shape, or form judge someone for how they got to be where they are through the Evolution of Life's Choices Made.. (Desperately, hungrily seeking likeminded Consciences the reason why, btw, that I was even on the aforementioned "web surfer anxious" website to begin with..)

Drum roll, please..

Sucks up the humdinger wazoo of them all that, for all the progress that can be and is being made in the preservation of disability rights and human dignity, somewhere under the radar and just out of reach today, someone has already yet again taken the Life of another because their hardened Heart was so cruel as to be woefully blind to the Value in that beautiful Life they have now irrevocably snuffed..

Yup.. Life Sucks..

And it's that Suck Factor that drives these Fingertips to now shamelessly tell it like it is from these Shoes..

Until it "don't"..

Suck..

Other than that, not much else of major importance going on in this little ol' bleached blonde Mind o' mine today (in case anyone was wondering where the H-e-double-toothpicks I'd dropped off the Edge of the Planet to this Time)..

Cyber hugs.. :wink: